Easter

Witnessing with Our Wounds

Luke 24:36b-48

Jesus himself came and stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.” They were startled and terrified, and thought that they were seeing a ghost. He said to them, “Why are you frightened, and why do doubts arise in your hearts? Look at my hands and my feet; see that it is I myself. Touch me and see; for a ghost does not have flesh and bones as you see that I have.”

And when he had said this, he showed them his hands and his feet. While in their joy they were disbelieving and still wondering, he said to them, “Have you anything here to eat?” They gave him a piece of broiled fish, and he took it and ate in their presence.

Then he said to them, “These are my words that I spoke to you while I was still with you – that everything written about me in the law of Moses, the prophets, and the psalms must be fulfilled.” Then he opened their minds to understand the scriptures, and said to them, “Thus it is written, that the Messiah is to suffer and to rise from the dead on the third day, and that repentance and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed in his name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses of these things.”


It’s been awhile, but I’ve had stitches three times in my life. Every incident and accident happened by the time I was in 3rd grade. The first was right smack-dab in the middle of my forehead. I think I was three or four years old, and jumping on the bed with the neighbor kids, when I bounced off and cracked my head on the corner of the desk in my room. The second time was in the driveway of the church parsonage sometime after that. Alan Heinz, who was older than me by a few years, pushed me, I slipped on the ice, and split my chin open. The third time was on a road trip with my grandmother, without my parents, when I fell down the steps on some rickety, rusty old metal swing-set. I sliced the skin near my eye enough that they had to sew me up.

As a kid those stories were fun to tell, once the healing had come. After the doctor visits and the stitches and the healing and what not, the scars were little badges of honor, I guess, with funny stories behind them. They don’t amount to much now – the scars or the stories – but at the time, there weren’t many 3rd graders who’d been stitched so prolifically as far as I knew. And my friends, my brother, my parents, my grandmother, and Alan Heinz, were all witnesses to my wounds.

Jesus was big on showing off his wounds, too. “Look at my hands and my feet.” “See that it is I, myself.”

And he said, “…the Messiah is to suffer and to rise from the dead on the third day, and repentance and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed in his name to all nations, beginning from Jerusalem. You are witnesses of these things.”

“You are witnesses of these things.”

Ugh. “Witnesses.” Haven’t we heard enough from and about “witnesses” these days. “Witnesses” in that courtroom. “Witnesses” in the streets. “Witnesses” inside that school in Knoxville, or near that alley in Chicago, or outside in the parking lot, or inside of that FedEx building, right here in Indianapolis – eye-witnesses, expert witnesses, character witnesses to all sorts of sadness and struggle and death and despair.

So, even though this world does its best to make it so hard, I want to wonder with all of you, with whatever of Easter’s joy we can still muster, what it means that Jesus would call us to be witnesses on this side of his empty tomb: witnesses to a Messiah that suffered and was raised from the dead on the third day: witnesses to the fact that Jesus got up from the grave, showed up for his friends – ate some broiled fish in their presence, just to prove it was true – and reminded them about their call to be “witnesses.”

What does that mean, exactly? To be “witnesses?”

Those first disciples sure had a lot to tell – not unlike some of the “witnesses” I just referred to. The disciples had witnessed a murder. A friend had died. A son had been executed. An injustice had been done. So much pain and fear and frustration and anger and despair were a part of all they had seen, heard, shared, and “witnessed.” So they had a story to tell, for sure.

And I think it’s so meaningful and deliberate that Jesus starts with his hands and his feet. Jesus uses the wounds from his crucified body – following the resurrection – differently than I did as a kid. I don’t get the impression he was proud of them or wore them as a badge of honor, I mean. Or that he enjoyed the story they told, necessarily.

But, remember last week, when he showed up for most of the disciples and then to Thomas? The holes in his hands and the wounds on his sides were evidence of his identity. Today, the same is true, for the disciples who saw him – the holes in his hands and the ones in his feet were proof that he was, indeed, Jesus – their friend, their rabbi, their Messiah, who had been crucified, had died, and had been buried. And who now ate some broiled fish just to prove he wasn’t a ghost.

But I got to thinking that Jesus’ wounds were more than just evidence of his identity or proof of life, even.

I think, in showing his wounds – in revealing where he had been hurt and suffered and struggled so mightily – Jesus was showing his disciples – and us – what it means to be witnesses, ourselves.

“…the Messiah is to suffer and to rise from the dead on the third day, and repentance and forgiveness of sins is to be proclaimed in his name to all nations … You are witnesses of these things.”

See, we are witnesses, you and I, not just to the resurrection and the forgiveness, the good news and the joy of it all. But we are witnesses to the suffering and the hard work of repentance and the struggle of it all, just the same. And I wonder if being a witness like Jesus invites us to be means showing off our own scars, revealing our own wounds, and not hiding the broken pieces of ourselves from each other or from the world.

And that’s hard. And terrifying. And takes courage and vulnerability and faith. And I don’t know that means for you. I’m not always sure what it means for myself – because the wounds that hurt now are deeper and harder to show off than the stitches that scarred me when I was a kid. Broken bones are like sticks and stones, as they say, compared to the broken hearts that burden us these days, don’t you think?

Our grief is a wound that is hard to lay bare.

The fears that keep us up at night are not always something we want to give voice to.

The sins we confess and long to have forgiven are not easily proclaimed.

The scars of whatever shame we carry are not readily revealed.

But I think that might be precisely why Jesus leads with his wounds. I think maybe Jesus leads with his wounds – boldly, bravely, and by example, so that we might, too, as we try to bear witness to just what God is up to in our lives and for the sake of the world.

I pray those families still reeling from what was lost at FedEx on Thursday will settle into some measure of hope when any of the thousands of families in this country who know their pain reach out to them with their own broken hearts.

 I’ve seen how the family of Daunte Wright has already been buoyed by the broken, but common ground they share with the family of George Floyd.

Parents who’ve survived the loss of a child are a beacon for those who are new to that grief.

Those who’ve endured a divorce and loved well again are a light for those stumbling down that road.

When someone comes out of the closet, finds their self, and thrives – someone still hiding is encouraged that maybe they can do the same.

Those who have been hurt by the Church or doubted their faith to the point of desperation, but have managed to keep it, have a gift to offer others in that same boat.

We have – each of us – suffered or are suffering. We have been frightened or are afraid, now. We have grieved mightily, many of us, or are grieving, still, in ways that someone out there in the world would be blessed to know about.

“See these wounds?” “You are witnesses to these things.” “I’ll show you mine,” Jesus seems to say, “so that you might show someone yours.” Because, Jesus knew what he wants us to share: that God does God’s best work with the wounded, broken, hurting, fearful, desperate parts of our lives in this world.

God takes all of that and redeems it. God takes all of that and forgives it. God takes all of it and breathes new life into it. God takes all of it and heals, comforts and loves it all into wholeness and justice and hope and peace.

And so he calls us to be witnesses, you and me – brave and bold and faithful and persistent, like Jesus. Witnesses – leading with our own wounds to show that what is broken, can be made whole; bearing witness to what is hurting but that can be comforted; bearing witness to what is sinful, but will be forgiven; bearing witness to what is dead, even, but will be raised to new life in his name.

Amen

I'll See It When I Believe It

John 20:19-31

When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the doors on the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” When he said this, he showed them his hands and his sides, and the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. He said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so now I send you.” And after he said this, he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any they are forgiven them. If you retain the sins of any, they are retained.”

Now, Thomas (who was called “the Twin”) one of the twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus appeared. So the disciples said to him, “We have seen the Lord.” But Thomas said to them, “Unless I see the marks of the nails in his hands, and put my fingers in the marks of the nails, and my hands in his side, I will not believe.”

A week later, the disciples were again in the house and this time, Thomas was with them. Although the doors were shut, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your fingers here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt, but believe.” Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” And Jesus said to him, “Do you believe because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.”

Now, Jesus did many other signs which are not written in this book, but these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you might have life in his name. 


“I’ll believe it when I see it.”

We’ve all heard that before right? “I’ll believe it when I see it.” I didn’t do any research about who said it first or if Thomas gets the credit for it, but that’s his sentiment exactly. “I’ll believe it when I see it.” “Unless I see the marks of the nails in his hands, and put my fingers in the marks of the nails, and my hands in his side, I will not believe.”

Maybe we’ve said it ourselves – “I’ll believe it when I see it” – not about things of faith, even, but about anything unexpected or hard to believe or too good to be true.

Like, that lottery ticket you bought on a whim being the big winner. “Yeah, right. I’ll believe it when I see it.”

Or like your kid cleaning up his room without being asked. “I’ll believe it when I see it.”

Or, like that chronically late friend actually showing up on time. “I’ll believe it when I see it.”

Or, like so-and-so who wants to believe that this relationship will be the one that sticks. “I’ll believe it when I see it.”

Some of us are naturally more cynical and skeptical than others, but we all do our fair share of doubting the difficult or unlikely ways of the world around us ... sometimes for very good reason. But I thought of a story this week that made me think differently, this time around, about what Jesus might be up to with Thomas, that’s different – and not so simple as – “I’ll believe it when I see it.”

The story goes that there was a wise old woman who, for years and years and years, weekend after weekend after weekend, took the bus into and around the city. She loved the city for all of its hustle and bustle, for all of its people and places, for all of its colors and food and shops and more. And, as much as she loved spending time in the city, she loved the bus ride just the same, because she liked she loved to watch and to talk with the people who would come and go at each stop along the way – especially the young people who were new and curious and so green about it all.

One day a young woman sat next to her on the bus and explained that she was new to town – she had never been to the city – and she wanted to know what it was like. The old woman asked her, “What have you heard? What are you expecting?” And the young woman – eyes smiling and full of excitement – said she heard it was beautiful and fun and full of food and lights and interesting, colorful, kind people. She couldn’t wait to get there and wasn’t sure she’d ever want to leave. The wise old woman sitting next to her, smiled and said, “You’re in for a treat. That’s exactly what you’re going to find in the city.” The young woman thanked the old lady and bounded off the bus, wide-eyed and smiling as she strode off into the city.

The next weekend a sullen young man plopped down in the seat next to the wise old woman, on their way into town, and grumbled his way through her attempts at some small talk. She asked him why he was in such a grumpy mood on such a beautiful day and he said he wasn’t looking forward to his visit to the city at all. He’d never been there before and he expected what he’d heard to be true – that the city was dark, dirty, and dangerous, that it was loud and crowded, that the people were mean and that he would be ready to leave as soon as he got there. As he moped his way off the bus, the wise old woman wished him good luck because, she said, that was exactly the city he was going to find when he got there.

Never mind, "I'll believe it when I see it." The point of the story is that the opposite is true a lot of the time, isn't it? "I'll see it when I believe it.” What we believe sets the stage for what our hearts and minds and eyes will see and experience. We can believe ourselves into happiness and joy and contentment and peace. Or we can believe ourselves into sadness and fear and anxiety or worse. I’m not pretending this is so cut-and-dried or easily done for any of us, but so much of the time, we see and experience what we believe – or what we’ve convinced ourselves – to be true.

And I wonder if this is something like what Jesus had in mind in those first days after Easter. I wonder if all of this showing up behind closed doors after the resurrection and his willingness and desire to show Thomas what seemed too good to be true is an even deeper lesson in what it means to live a life of faith than it looks like on the surface of Jesus's scarred sides and holey hands.

What if, when Jesus says to Thomas – and whoever else was paying attention – “blessed are those who have not seen [yet] and have [already] come to believe” – he’s saying something like, “You’ll see it when you believe it.” 

Now, there might be no amount of faith or belief on your part that will clean your son’s room or change your friend’s knack for being late or mend someone else’s relationship woes. But our willingness to have faith or hold space for possibilities we can’t always see, might actually change the way we experience the world for ourselves – and see God alive and well in the world around us.

Like, if we believe there can be forgiveness by God’s grace – for us or for someone in our life – we might be able to not only imagine that forgiveness, but we might find a way to receive it, or to offer it up, too. “I’ll see it if/when I believe it can be true.” 

Or, if we believe there can be healing from some kind of hurt or brokenness in our life, we might start looking for ways to facilitate and manifest that healing in ways that actually bring it fruition. “I’ll see it when I believe it.”

Or, if we believe there can be new life or a second-chance or some resurrection after a tragedy or a loss or a failure, our eyes might be more willing to look for and able to actually see new life, or a second chance, or resurrection when it shows up to surprise even the most cynical among us.

“Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe.” “Blessed are those who have not seen [yet] and have [already] come to believe.” Or, “You’ll see it when you believe it.”

See, I think Jesus knows this faith and belief stuff is hard. I think that’s why he kept showing up for those first disciples – and especially for Thomas, the one who had such a hard time believing – for good reason – what seemed too good to be true.

Because who knows what was troubling Thomas at the time, after all. Maybe he couldn’t get his son to clean his room. Maybe Thomas was the one who was always late and that’s why he wasn’t there the first time Jesus appeared. Maybe his relationship was on the rocks. Maybe his wife had breast cancer. Maybe his father was in the hospital, or his best friend was dying, or he’d just lost his job, or his dog had died. Maybe he was as scared as the rest of the disciples about what was next for them all, now that Jesus had been crucified, died, and was buried.)

Whatever the case, Jesus wanted Thomas to believe that that wasn't the end of the story; that there was more and better waiting for him by the grace of God. And I wonder if Jesus wanted him – and wants, us, too – to believe this, first, so that we might look for and come to see the very real presence of God among us in real, surprising, loving ways because of it.

Like that wise old woman on the bus in the city, maybe Jesus longs for us to believe in and to expect more of God’s grace to find us on this side of heaven, so that we might go looking for it – especially in the broken, wounded, fearful places of our lives – so that when it shows up in our midst, we’ll be ready to recognize, reach out, touch, receive, and share that kind of grace with the world in his name.

Amen