Pastor Mark

"Brutiful" – John 10:22-30

John 10:22-30

At that time the festival of the Dedication took place in Jerusalem. It was winter, and Jesus was walking in the temple, in the portico of Solomon. So the Jews gathered around him and said to him, "How long will you keep us in suspense? If you are the Messiah, tell us plainly." Jesus answered, "I have told you, and you do not believe. The works that I do in my Father's name testify to me; but you do not believe, because you do not belong to my sheep. My sheep hear my voice. I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one will snatch them out of my hand. What my Father has given me is greater than all else, and no one can snatch it out of the Father's hand. The Father and I are one."


I meant to talk about stewardship today – the financial kind, I mean.  Our General Fund commitment Sunday is coming up on May 1st, and over the course of the next couple of weeks, leading up to that, I hope to get us all thinking and praying and making plans about our money – why we have it, why we give it, the work it does in and around and for the church, the way sharing our money blesses us as much as it does the church and the world, and so on.  I even had some good ideas about this Gospel and hearing Jesus’ voice; about faithful sheep who follow what God asks of us to do with our money; about doing the works of Jesus in God’s name, and so on. 

But then this week happened. 

Someone from our congregation is in danger of losing their home; someone else has lost a job; others continue to search for work. 

Many of us keep praying for sick kids and loved ones for whom cures can’t come soon enough. 

I know of a young mother waiting with all kinds of sadness and anxiety for what seems like the inevitable loss of a pregnancy.

I heard this week that 70 people were killed by guns in just one 72 hour period in this country.

North Korea just developed a bigger, better, further-reaching weapon of mass-destruction. 

An earthquake destroyed Japan. 

And, all most people seem to want to talk about is the whole Donald Cruz. Hillary Sanders circus, or whatever all of that is.

So, despair and frustration seem to be the order of the day…every day; or at least more days than not, these days.

So, “away with sermons on financial stewardship,” I thought, “we have bigger fish to fry.”  And my inclination – my desire, anyway – is to try to prove something to the contrary about all of our bad news; to undo all of the really good reasons we have to ask hard questions and to harbor strong doubts and fears, even in these days so soon after Easter. And so my head and heart go searching for some evidence to combat it all.  And it’s out there.  You can find it if you look.

Thanks to the work of a few faithful Cross of Gracers, that home-foreclosure I mentioned a moment ago has been postponed. 

The young mother whose pregnancy is failing received a prayer shawl – and the prayers that came with it mattered for her.

We are baptizing babies like crazy around here.  We’ve had nine since Easter Sunday, one more this morning, for little Lindy Harrison, and a couple of others in the hopper. These are people and parents – in spite of all sorts of reason not to – who are affirming faith and stepping into the promises of God’s love as a sign and celebration and embrace of gratitude that God is up to something new and holy and different in their lives.

But bear with me, because all of this is more than “looking at the bright side,” or “searching for silver linings,” or “turning lemons into lemonade.” I don’t mean this is simple or easy or warm-and-fuzzy in any way.  Which brings me to today’s Gospel.

What Jesus does today Gospel is something we don’t always recognize unless someone points it out. What Jesus does is step into the middle of the world’s news – the good, the bad, and the ugly of the world’s news – very deliberately. See, John’s Gospel doesn’t tell us, just for the sake of it, that Jesus is strolling through Solomon’s Portico.

John’s Gospel wants us to know Jesus is walking around in the Portico of Solomon because this porch – somewhere on the east side of the Temple – was the place from which the King would pronounce judgment and justice upon his subjects, back in the day.  And not only that, but Jesus was there during the Festival of Dedication, when believers celebrated the temple’s annual, formal, ritualistic consecration and blessing.

So along comes Jesus, stepping into all of this history; this one who, not long before, had declared himself a new “Temple,” of sorts.  During this holy time for that worldly “temple,” then comes a different kind of “temple” God would re-build just three days after the world tried to destroy it. In other words, the “temple” of Jesus Christ was strolling around in the “temple” – in the Portico of Solomon, to be specific – so that into this place of earthly judgment and worldly justice strolls the very presence of true justice; faithful justice; righteous justice; loving justice in the likes of Jesus Christ, the Son of God.

And this is our good news.  This is our Gospel.  This is our comfort and joy and calling and challenge in these days.  And again, this is not a greeting card.  This is not easy.  This is not meant to be some warm and fuzzy response to whatever struggle or sadness we face – because I don’t have answers for all of the despair and fear and disappointment that bombard us from one day to the next.

But I’m encouraged to see Jesus step into the middle of it all to proclaim and promise and become something different.  And because of Jesus, I’m challenged to be something better and holy and different, myself; to be something hopeful and gracious and merciful, when I’m able; to step into the mix of the despair and darkness that surrounds me, and to be something forgiving and loving and patient and just, in spite of that.

It’s why we are the Church in the world – and it’s why we are the Church right here at Cross of Grace, together, too. It’s why we worship and pray and tell what we know of grace. And yes, it’s why we share our money and our resources and ourselves, however we’re able.  All of this is who and how each of us is called to be. It’s what we’re about as sheep who know the voice of the one who calls us out of the darkness and into the world.

And life in this world can be brutal.  There’s no denying that.  There’s no escaping that.  There’s no fixing that anytime soon, as far as I can tell.

Frederick Buechner, a pastor and theologian said once, “Here is the world.  Beautiful and terrible things will happen. Don’t be afraid.” Glennon Doyle Melton, of Momastery fame, a mother and theologican in her own right, who I know many of you are familiar with, calls the mess of it all “brutiful” – as “beautiful” as it is “brutal.” But they aren’t the first to notice or to name it or to call the mess of this world what it is.

Because Jesus knew, too… God knows… life in the world can be as hard as it is holy a lot of the time.  And I’ve come to believe those two things – hard and holy – aren’t mutually exclusive.  Because into the hard stuff comes Jesus, at one with the Father, calling us all out of the darkness and into the light, like so many sheep, longing for a voice we can follow.  

We’re scared sometimes. We’re lost sometimes. We’re hurting and broken and shaken, on occasion. But we follow because there is beauty to be seen and shared, too. And there is generosity, and justice, and peace, and hope. And a lot of the time we are called to be those things – generous, just, peaceable, and full of hope, I mean. We are the ones called to be and to bring the beauty, in spite of the ugly that surrounds us.

As believers, as followers, as faithful ones – even when that faith waivers and gives way, more often than we’d like – we’re called to bear witness to the light, to bring the beauty, to bear the beautiful, and to share grace with all creation in the name of this Jesus, our Good Shepherd, who promises never to let us be snatched away from the love of our creator.

Amen

"Shut Up and Show Up" – John 20:19-31

John 20:19-31

When it was evening on that day, the first day of the week, and the doors of the house where the disciples had met were locked for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with you." After he said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples rejoiced when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, "Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I send you." When he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, "Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you retain the sins of any, they are retained."

But Thomas (who was called the Twin ), one of the twelve, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord." But he said to them, "Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands, and put my finger in the mark of the nails and my hand in his side, I will not believe."

A week later his disciples were again in the house, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were shut, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with you." Then he said to Thomas, "Put your finger here and see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it in my side. Do not doubt but believe." Thomas answered him, "My Lord and my God!" Jesus said to him, "Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe." Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not written in this book. But these are written so that you may come to believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that through believing you may have life in his name.


Whenever this bit about Doubting Thomas shows up – especially just the week after Easter – I side with Thomas. Frankly, I feel like Thomas gets a bad rap by forever being dubbed the “doubting” one. At least it seems like a bad rap to me, if the presumption is that Thomas’ doubting is a bad, or negative, or less-than-faithful way of being in the world and responding to the good news of Easter.

And I’m not one to throw stones, I have to tell you, because who could blame Thomas, really? I think I might have been right there with him – skeptical, cynical, afraid, doubtful, whatever – in the face of this Easter news, so soon after it had all gone down. And I would have been skeptical not just because the news was out of this world… crazy… unbelievable stuff about a man being raised from the dead. Never mind the unbelievable facts of the matter. The sources of the story – the reporters of the news – weren’t the most reliable bunch, remember.

These disciples, I mean, had been down a long road of ministry together, and time and again they had missed the point. They misunderstood Jesus’ teachings. They misinterpreted Jesus’ miracles. They misjudged Jesus’ intentions all along the way – as he spent time with sinners, while he healed the sick, or when he preached about the Kingdom of God. And just the week before, leading up to his crucifixion and death, one disciple betrayed him, another disciple denied him three times, others fell asleep on him in the garden before his arrest and every one of them left Jesus in the dust to be taken away and crucified. So it’s no wonder Thomas doubted what these knuckleheads were telling him they had just seen.

And I would say we’re no different, too much of the time. And that the world around us is filled with “Doubting Thomases” who have a lot of really good reasons – just like Thomas – to be cynical, skeptical, and afraid, even, about the motives, the mission, and the ministry of so many Christians in the world.

I read an article recently about what non-believers believe about Christian people, these days, and it’s not pretty, or easy to swallow. When asked what they would say to Christians if they thought we would listen, non-believers said things like:

Christians are hypocritical.

Christians hold modern beliefs that aren’t Christ-like.

Christians think that philosophy, science, postmodernism, movies, [and more] are out to get them.

Christians are judgmental, narrow-minded, and tell others how to live their lives.

Christians reject reality, think non-believers are horrible and unworthy, and condemn others.

Christians are arrogant, and think asking questions and searching for answers is a bad thing.

Christians are on the wrong side of big issues like discrimination against people of color, women, and homosexuals.

Of course, I don’t think these opinions are right for all Christians, but I’ve seen and read and know enough Christian people to understand why these stereotypes and opinions exist – and are true in too many cases. And because of them, it makes the prospect of sharing Easter’s good news in ways that will matter for people like Thomas – the doubters, the skeptics, the cynics; and the scared and the sad and the struggling, too – a daunting proposition. And sharing Easter’s good news is what we’re called to be about as people who believe it. It’s what Jesus was up to when he showed up in that room, breathing, sharing the Holy Spirit, showing off the battle scars of his crucifixion, and charging his followers with the power to forgive sins.

And my temptation – and I think that of too many Christians – is to see Jesus’ encore performance – the following week, when he showed up again, for the benefit of Thomas? – as a second attempt at proving his case; as evidence that couldn’t be refuted; as a closing argument for the defense, if you will, for the hard-hearted, closed-minded, doubt-filled disciple who missed it the first time.

But then I remembered something Philip Yancey has said: that “No one ever converted to Christianity because they lost the argument.” “No one ever converted to Christianity because they lost the argument.”

And it made me imagine that Jesus was up to much more than just proving his case or proving Thomas wrong. What Jesus did for Thomas was … whatever Thomas needed in order to believe, to have faith, to experience Easter’s joy and good news and new life, in a way that mattered for Thomas.

So, I wonder what that means for me… for you… for us… as we do our best to live with faith – and to live faithfully – in these Easter days so many generations after the fact when our faith and belief are so wrapped up in how we’ll vote and who we’ll vote for; when so many confess their faith in defensive ways; when so much proclamation and pretend evangelism happens by way of tweets and memes and bumper stickers; when faith is debated and debatable and argued and fought over in ways that drive away the skeptics and the cynics and the scared and the struggling, instead of drawing them closer to the light and life and peace and joy God means to offer.

And I think it means we do more of what Jesus did for Thomas: we don’t debate; or argue; or shame; or scare. We don’t state our case or prove our point with words or arguments or whatever.

We show up, like Jesus did. We share the waters of baptism and new life … not just in worship on Sunday morning, but by building water cisterns for families in Haiti, and by protecting the waters of God’s creation.

We show up, like Jesus did. We break bread, not just in worship, but in the world, by sharing food with our food pantry, or handing out those “bags of blessing,” when we see someone in need.

We show up, like Jesus did. We confess and forgive sins, not just as part of our liturgy, but daily, in prayer and in person, and for and with the people in our lives.

We show up, like Jesus did. We breathe and we live and move and have our being among believers and non-believers and other kinds of believers in this world, bestowing peace by way of our actions and presence and patience and grace.

We show up, like Jesus did. We show our scars, acknowledging our brokenness and our struggles and our fears and our doubts. And when we’re able – with honesty, integrity, hope, and joy – we share how God has filled the holes of that brokenness with light and life and healing and promise.

Because when we do these things – if we just show up and maybe shut up more often – we become the hands and feet of the resurrected Jesus, and others will see God’s grace at work among us and come to believe and share in this new life that belongs to us all.

Amen