Pastor Mark

Hard to Swallow

John 6:56-69

[Jesus said,] “Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them. Just as the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever eats me will live because of me. This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like that which your ancestors ate, and they died. But the one who eats this bread will live forever.” He said these things while he was teaching in the synagogue at Capernaum.

When many of his disciples heard it, they said, “This teaching is difficult; who can accept it?” But Jesus, being aware that his disciples were complaining about it, said to them, “Does this offend you? Then what if you were to see the Son of Man ascending to where he was before? It is the spirit that gives life; the flesh is useless. The words that I have spoken to you are spirit and life. But among you there are some who do not believe.” For Jesus knew from the first who were the ones that did not believe, and who was the one that would betray him. And he said, “For this reason I have told you that no one can come to me unless it is granted by the Father.”

Because of this, many of his disciples turned back and no longer went about with him. So Jesus asked the twelve, “Do you also wish to go away?” Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom can we go? You have the words of eternal life. We have come to believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.”


If you’ve been around Cross of Grace for worship the last several weeks – or in any Christian church that follows the lectionary of scripture readings that guides our life together – it may be hard to believe we’re still talking about the Bread of Life. (We’re in it for week five at this point, but who’s counting!?)

But remember with me that, though this might seem like OLD good news to many of us, what we’ve been hearing and learning from Jesus was very much NEW ground for those who were learning to follow him, back in the day. And today is no different.

Jesus is teaching in the synagogue at Capernaum, about what it means that he had come down from heaven as bread for the sake of the world. We have to remind ourselves, as 21st Century Christians – Sunday morning quarterbacks, in all of this, if you will – that the symbolism and imagery and teaching here, aren’t that much of a stretch for us. We will share communion this morning – eating bread and drinking wine – just like we did last week, and the week before that; and just like we’ll do next week and the week after that, and so on.

So, we are down with Jesus as the Bread of Life. We get this Bread from Heaven stuff, which fills us with forgiveness and grace and the promised redemption and resurrection of our souls on the other side of God’s heaven, and all the rest. This, too, may sound like OLD good news to us.

But put yourself into that synagogue in Capernaum as a faithful Jewish man, woman or child, and hear these words from Jesus, about eating his flesh and drinking his blood, and comparing it all to your ancestors even further back in the day who were lost and wandering around in the desert, but who God saved with bread that came down from heaven in the form of manna in the wilderness – very real food from heaven that saved their lives – right where they were; right when they needed it most.

The people listening to Jesus didn’t have the luxury or the understanding of the sacramental, Sunday morning quarterback’s perspective with which we are blessed. Never mind the audacity and arrogance and blasphemy of claiming to have ‘come down from heaven’ … when they heard Jesus invite them to eat his flesh and drink his blood, he may have sounded more like a First Century Hannibal “The Cannibal” Lecter, than any kind of Messiah – or Son of God – or Savior of the world.

And it was too much to bear, for many of them. They couldn’t abide. They didn’t understand. This was crazy talk. They couldn’t swallow it – they wouldn’t swallow it – this bread from heaven, this flesh and blood, Jesus was promising could change everything. So they turned back and refused to follow him any further. And, understanding their perspective, it’s hard to blame them, really. Don’t you think?

Some of you know that a group of us has been studying a book the last few weeks, called UnClobber, by a pastor and theologian named Colby Martin. It’s about a new, different way to understand the place of homosexuality in Scripture. It’s about re-evaluating the traditional theology that condemns lesbian, gay, bi-sexual, transgender, and queer people. It involves studying the historical, sociological, cultural context of Scripture, along with the language and translation of relevant passages, in a way that takes the sting out of the handful of Scriptures that, for so long, have been used to shame, judge, convict, and condemn LGBTQ children of God. Ultimately, our time together – I hope – is about learning to love, not just tolerate, our LGBT and Q brothers and sisters, in a new, faithful way.

As many of you know, this is a harder thing to grasp for some of us than it is for others. We made a commitment, at the beginning of our time together, to be “curious” about what we would read and discuss, rather than “furious” about whatever might come of it.

Now, the class and its teaching hasn’t been all that new or challenging for everyone around the table. But it is new and it has been challenging for others. There are some in the group who have been doing some heavy lifting, some faithful wrestling, some hard work with all of this. And that has been quite inspiring to be part of, from my perspective.

But the truth is, that it’s been too hard and too heavy for a few – particularly some guests who had never been to Cross of Grace for anything before this study. At least one person bought the book with good intentions of joining the class, but never showed up. Another person gave up on it all after only our second gathering.

They didn’t buy it, I guess. They can’t believe it, I suppose. They won’t swallow it, if you will; this new kind of bread that’s different from anything they’ve ever tasted or believed before. They’ve decided, as far as I can tell, something like what those first century folks said to Jesus, “This teaching is difficult. Who can accept it?”

And I’m working to honor my end of the bargain to not be furious about that. I can’t help but be curious about what more or better or different could be said or done to convince them otherwise. And I’m mostly frustrated and sad, too, that I wasn’t able to break through the hard crust of that old bread I feel they’re still clinging to, still chewing on, still choking down, and still passing around, out there in the world.

Because the bottom line for me is that the good news of Jesus – the bread of life that has come down from heaven for the sake of the world – is almost too good to be true. There are times and places and people for whom my own preconceived notions and prejudices make all of this grace stuff too difficult to buy or believe. How can this grace be for him? Is it possible for them to be forgiven? Will there be mercy and redemption, even, for so and so? (Each of us can fill in those blanks, I believe.)

I feel myself saying, to Jesus, “This teaching is too difficult. Who can accept it?” 

And then I hear Jesus responding, just like he said to those first followers, “Does this offend you?” “Is my grace too big for you?” “Is my love too wide… my mercy too mighty… my forgiveness too abundant?” And I hear him saying, something else, too, like he also said to those first followers, “You ain’t seen nothing yet.” “Wait until you see me raised from the dead, the Son of Man ascending to where he was before – conquering death, vanquishing sin, redeeming, saving, feeding the world with this bread of life that’s come down from heaven.”

See, this is about more than learning to understand Scripture differently around the hot-button issue of the day – or even having to agree about all of that at every turn. This is about any time we feel God trying to do a new thing in …or for …or through our lives. This is about all the times we wonder if God is big enough to forgive that sin; to comfort that grief; to do that justice; to love that mightily; to merit this kind of hope.

And it’s the story of our faith – that even when we can’t, God does. Even when we won’t God will. Even when we refuse, God has already. So we keep trying. We struggle with the heavy lifting. We wrestle with this grace we’re called to receive and to share. And we are patient with ourselves and with others when any one of us can’t or won’t or doesn’t.

And then we return to the table, together, I hope – to the one who has the words and the way to eternal life. And we eat – with humility and joy – this bread of life, that’s come down from heaven. We eat this bread of life and we are better for it. We eat this bread of life and we share it with the world until all are fed with the same grace and mercy, the same love and forgiveness, the same hope that is ours when we do.

Amen
 

Why Are You Afraid?

Mark 4:35-41

On that day, when evening had come, [Jesus] said to [the disciples], “Let us go across to the other side.” And leaving the crowd behind, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. Other boats were with him. A great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped. But Jesus was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke him up and said to him, “Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” He woke up and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace!  Be s till!” Then the wind ceased, and there was a dead calm. He said to them, “Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?”  And they were filled with great awe and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?”


“Why are you afraid?” Those are the words that stand out to me in today’s Gospel story this time around.

“Why are you afraid?” “Have you still no faith?” If we’re supposed to look at the storm in Mark’s story as some sort of metaphor for our lives in this world – which I think is fair – then I think it’s fair and faithful, too, to wonder about Jesus’ question today in the same way.

“Why are you afraid?” “Of what are you afraid?” “What is it that makes any of us scared, anxious, full of worry … AFRAID?”

Maybe your answer to that question, like the disciples’ is, actually, “storms.” Fair enough. My wife is “this close” to drawing up plans for a storm shelter whenever the wind blows just right or the weather radar changes colors. But there is plenty more that scares us – worries us – makes us afraid – from day to day, isn’t there?

I’m afraid of heights.

I’m kind of afraid of birds and definitely afraid of bats.

If I were in the Sea of Galilee with the disciples, I’d prefer to be out of the water, in the boat or, say, on water skis because I’m afraid of the weeds and the fish and God knows what else is beneath the surface of the water waiting to nibble on my toes when I can’t see them.

But I’m afraid of some other things, too.

I’m afraid of my dad’s unpredictable – and apparently untreatable – heart issues. I was afraid to hear that my uncle, my dad’s younger brother, had to have his first open-heart surgery on Friday. And I’m afraid of the fact that I have a lot of those Havel genes and DNA running through my own veins.

I’m afraid I’m not a good enough husband and father – no matter how nice my family was to me on Father’s Day last weekend.

I’m afraid for the Church – that people don’t see or respect or value what we have to offer the world, like they used to. And I’m afraid the Church that the gives them good reason for that sometimes.

And I get a little anxious around here every year at this time, in this Church – that we won’t give enough to the General Fund or to the Building Fund, not just to sustain, but to grow our ministry in faithful, fun, meaningful ways. And I’m afraid I won’t be able to inspire that kind of faithfulness or generosity.

I’m afraid of the same bigger picture stuff most of us are stewing about these days, too.

I’m afraid of school shootings.

I was afraid this week to learn that a friend of mine – if he didn’t have health insurance – would have had to pay $71,000 for an appendectomy, a completely unpredictable, unpreventable need that could befall anyone.

And I’ve been afraid about what’s been going on at our southern border. Not afraid, really, in any imminent way, for myself, of course. But I’m afraid for those families and I’m sad for those kids and I’m afraid, too, of what that issue – and all the ways we defend or dispute it – reveals about us.

I’m afraid that we’re afraid of each other. And I’m afraid that we’re afraid of “THE OTHER.” I’m afraid we don’t see people as people enough of the time. I’m afraid that instead of people – instead of brothers and sisters in Christ – instead of Children of God – we see each other as the sum of our posts on Facebook; as the collection of our tweets on Twitter; as allies or as opponents; as political persuasions; as “right” or “wrong”; as “legal” or “illegal” – as if anyone’s worth or value or personhood; as if anyone’s safety or well-being should be determined by those kinds of labels or ideologies or political opinions or national origin.

Sometimes I'm afraid there is nothing new under the sun in all of this. And sometimes I'm afraid that there is.

And I’m afraid all of this fear – the personal stuff and the big picture things, too – will get the best of us, if we’re not careful. I’m afraid if we don’t invite Jesus into the mix – if we don’t remember and recognize what he would do and have us do, just the same – that all of this fear, and the fighting and anxiety it fosters, threatens to win the day.

See, I don’t think the disciples in the story were just scared of the wind and the waves that stirred things up on the Sea of Galilee that day, in the boat with Jesus. I think they must have been afraid, too, that Jesus had the power to stop it all. Like some magical meteorologist, Jesus gave the command – “Peace! Be still!” – and the storm ended. If all the healing and preaching and cleansing and teaching they’d already seen from Jesus wasn’t enough, this reality check about the power of God, alive and well in their midst… in that boat… in the carpenter’s Son from Nazareth… must have scared them silly. It would have me.

And if he was who he said he was… if this power was real… if he could do all of these things with the blessing of the Almighty… then what he was asking them to do all of a sudden carried a kind of weight and burden and power and importance that would have been frightening, to say the least.

Because in the face of our fears – however large or small, personal or big-picture – we’re called to remember, to trust, and to live differently because of God’s good news in Jesus. Our God is stronger than death. God’s love is more fierce than the grave. 

So, even heart troubles, heart attacks, and heart surgeries are no match for God’s kind of healing – whether that takes place on this side of the grave or the other.

My shortcomings as a father and as a husband are no more real and no match for the mercy and forgiveness and second chances I’m afforded by God’s kind of grace.

The Church in the world – and our little piece of it here at Cross of Grace – are under God’s care and provision. Yes, we pray, we give, we do, we ask hard questions, but we trust – ultimately – that God’s mercy has been our help in ages past and that God’s mission is our hope for whatever is to come.

And our hope for healing the divisions that separate and threaten us these days rest, too, in the ways of Jesus. Remember, he called the disciples that day from one side of the sea to the other … away from home… away from what they knew … away, perhaps, from where they felt safe, even … into Gentile territory… where the “others” were – the outsiders, the unclean, more of the sick and leprous and demon-possessed from the wrong side of the tracks.

May all of that symbolize and represent for us those people from whom we’d rather keep our distance; those people with whom we disagree; those people from whom we are repelled, even. And may we see them, too, as children of God – much to our surprise. And may we show ourselves to them in the same way. May they see in us image-bearers of a loving, gracious, forgiving, merciful Creator in as many ways as we are able.

Maybe then the storms that surround us will subside. Or maybe then, we’ll be able to endure them with less fear. Maybe then, our fear will be a mere portion of the energy with which we experience the world around us – less fear, more faith, hope and love, I mean. And maybe then, our faith will win the day, so that living and loving in the ways of Jesus – who even the wind and sea obey – will still, not just the storms and fears and anxieties in our own lives, but will give us the power to calm, too, and transform the fears of the world where we live.

Amen