identity

"What's in a Name?"

Matthew 3:13-17
Then Jesus came from Galilee to John at the Jordan, to be baptized by him. John would have prevented him, saying, “I need to be baptized by you, and do you come to me?” But Jesus answered him, “Let it be so now, for it is proper for us in this way to fulfill all righteousness.” Then he consented. And when Jesus had been baptized, just as he came up from the water, suddenly the heavens were opened to him and he saw God’s Spirit descending like a dove and alighting on him. And a voice from the heavens said, “This is my Son, the Beloved, with whom I am well pleased.”


Questions about my name have followed me my whole life. “Cogan? Wow, that's a unique name! Where does it come from? Or, what does it mean? Is that a family name? Or my personal favorite, “How'd your parents come up with that?” I’ve become quite fond of this interaction and some of us have already had it! As for the questions, I have no idea the name's origin or nationality, or what it means. It’s not a family name. And if or when you meet my parents you should ask them how they came up with it or why they plagued me with this practical joke for my whole life.

Shakespeare, by way of Juliet, quipped, “What’s in a name? A rose by any other name would smell as sweet”. Meaning a name is nothing more than what we infer upon it, the emphasis we give it. And while there is certainly truth to that, in our culture we give enormous emphasis to names and even more so titles. Titles impress, they grant authority, respect, sometimes even honor. We work hard to get these titles!

Maybe their letters before or after our names, or a phrase: Dr, Engineer, Mother, Teacher, Director. Often we hide behind these titles or names that we’ve been given or claimed. We place our identity in them, thinking we will find affirmation out in the world through them.

I’ve thought a fair amount about this considering I soon will gain two new titles, pastor and father; both for which I’ve yearned. But even knowing all that you do about me, my name, my soon to be titles, you don’t really know me. You don’t know what kind of pastor or father I will be.

And if you judged me just by name you’d think “Idk… he must be kinda weird”. We assume much, but really we can’t know a lot about a person from names and titles alone. I think the same is true for Jesus and why the story of his baptism is so revealing.

Thus far in Matthew, Jesus is given a few names and titles: Jesus, meaning Yahweh is salvation, the Messiah, meaning the anointed, Emmanuel, King of the Jews. Talk about some impressive names and titles, can you imagine the pressure?! Yet, up until now, Jesus hasn’t done anything. Everything has happened to him: he was birthed, named, visited, taken to Egypt, and brought to Nazareth.

Jesus may have names and titles, and we can (and do) assume much about him because of those, just as the people of Matthew’s community did. But Jesus has yet to act or do anything himself. What kind of Messiah will he be? How will Yahweh’s salvation come from him? In what ways will he be God with us? And how do we, as readers or hearers of this story, know that these names and titles are right and true? I certainly don’t believe all of the things that happen in my dreams… do you?!

It’s as if the author of Matthew knew these questions would arise at this point in the story. And right on time, Jesus came to John at the Jordan. It’s really an odd event if we think about it: why would Jesus, the anointed, need baptism? And if John’s baptism is one for repentance of sins, why would the sinless Jesus need it? These questions are interesting and important and the early church wrestled with them fiercely. However, by focusing solely on such questions we risk missing what this baptism tells us about Jesus.

John, by his question, takes the position as the less important person when Jesus arrived. But Jesus flips the script, adamant that he was to be baptized by John. “for it is proper for us in this way to fulfill all righteousness.” The “for us” links John and Jesus together as partners in carrying out God’s saving plan. Jesus chose to work with John, this mere mortal to bring about God’s will.

And then this most miraculous scene unfolds as Jesus came out of the water, he saw the sky open to heavens, the Holy Spirit falling in dove form upon him, and then God spoke not only to Jesus, but to John and the others gathered, “This is my Son, the Beloved, with whom I am well pleased”. Now we can begin to hear and see more clearly who this Jesus is and the ways in which he works.

God did not speak of names and titles, but of Jesus' identity: child of God, beloved. And perhaps even better, God affirms, nay celebrates his identity saying, “with whom I am well pleased”. Jesus did nothing to earn this: he had done no miracle, no feeding of thousands, no teaching the crowds, no healing the sick. The only thing he did was get baptized, revealing to us the way Jesus works. Not with power or force, but in humble obedience Jesus joined with John so that he would bear the sin of all those baptized.

Think of all the names and titles you bear: some you love and some you don’t. Some you were given and some you claimed. Some you earned and for some you yearn. And yet, these names, these titles… they do not define you whether you want them to or you don’t. They don’t give affirmation as to who you are. Only baptism does that... because in baptism God claims you as God’s own and gives you not a name or a title, but your identity.

Above all you are a beloved child of God… and because of Christ, God looks upon you and says, “with you I am well pleased”. You did nothing to earn that. In fact, there’s nothing you could do. God freely gives it to you and we call that grace. And is there anything more that we could want? than to know who we are and whose we are… to be celebrated by the One who created us… to be loved and redeemed by the humble and obedient Servant who, as the prophet says, brings light to the nations, who opens the eyes of those blind to suffering and oppression, and who will establish justice in the earth.

Not only does God give us our identity but also our mission. Just as Jesus chose to work with John so also In baptism God chooses to work through us; the lowly, weak, sinful humans that we are because that’s who composes the body of Christ.

We, you and I, have mutually chosen to be partners in mission together, of which I am thrilled. Before that, You all chose to be partners in mission and have done incredible work. Yet most important is the fact that Christ chose you as a partner in mission. And together we are tasked with the mission of the humble and obedient servant: to bring light to the nations, to open the eyes of those blind to suffering and oppression, and to establish justice in the earth.

Over the next few weeks and months, I will learn your names and your titles. But more than that, I want to know who you are: how you experience God in your life, what your passions are, and the ways you feel God at work in this community.

And I am confident we will move forward in this mission we share, not because of our names or our titles, but because of our shared identity. I am confident because God has called us in righteousness, taken us by the hand, and kept us. God is doing new things: in your life, in this community, and in the world.

Together, we will discern, act, and give praise to the one whose name is the Lord. Amen.

Transcend and Include

In what may be a classic case of the pastor reading his or her own life into the text, I noticed for the first time that this Pentecost story from Acts, which we read every year on this festival Sunday, is a story about identity. That is, who we understand ourselves to be; as well as who God understands us to be.

In today’s story, Jesus’ disciples are gathered for the Hebrew festival of Pentecost when suddenly God’s Spirit rushes into their room, lights a fire above their heads, and enables them to start speaking in languages other than their own. This attracts a great multi-ethnic and multi-cultural crowd of amazed and astonished onlookers. Each person in the large crowd, regardless of their home country and language, hears and understands the words of God’s spirit speaking through the mouths of 12 Hebrew men. 

The first lesson about identity from this scripture is that the Spirit respects and works within an individual’s identity. The crowd did not have to sacrifice their culture or language in order to receive God’s word. No one among that crowd had to become a Hebrew in order to be filled with God’s word. The Mesopotamians could be Mesopotamian and still receive God’s word. The Arabs could be Arab and still receive God’s word, and so on.

It’s appropriate and important to layer this truth on top of our world today. Israelis can be Israeli and receive God’s word in the same way that Palestinians can be Palestinian and receive God’s word. Republicans can be Republican and receive God’s word in the same way that Democrats can be Democrats and receive God’s word. Ohio State fans can be Ohio State fans and receive God’s word...and, well, good luck to all the rest of you! Just kidding. The Spirit never demands that you give up your identity; nor does it require that of anyone else. Who you are matters. Your gifts, your desires, your quirks, your vocational calling...it all matters.

The second lesson about identity from this scripture is that the Spirit transcends an individual’s identity. Peter is tasked with correcting those among the crowd who think the disciples are nothing more than drunks. Human beings like to label and categorize the identities of others. You’re black, you’re gay, you’re rich, you’re lucky, you’re a jerk, you’re a friend, you’re worthless, you’re a banker, you’re a pastor. This can be an innocent and helpful practice, but it clearly has the capacity to push away and oppress those whom you consider different.  

To such dismissive label-making, Peter raises his voice (which, in the New Testament, only happens when a blessing is being pronounced), and shouts an excerpt from Joel:

“In the last days it will be, God declares, that I will pour out my Spirit upon all flesh….Even upon my slaves, both men and women, in those days I will pour out my Spirit; and they shall prophesy. Then everyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved.”

All flesh shall prophesy and everyone who calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved. Not just the Lutherans, the Hebrews, the Republicans, the Democrats, the righteous, the drunks, the rich, the poor, the bankers, or the pastors.

This story is an epic announcement that God seeks to transcend and include our identities as the Holy Spirit does its saving work. 

It is absolutely true that who we are matters. 

It is absolutely true that God will work within us in spite of who we are. 

It is absolutely true that God will work within us because of who we are. 

Transcend and include. In other words, be who you are but don’t let it limit you or others.

This is my final Sunday here as a Pastor at Cross of Grace. Since announcing my resignation, the question of my identity has been a dominant one. Just about everyone has questions about who I am, or, rather, who I will be starting tomorrow. 

Will I still be in the ministry? 
Yes, of course. After all, one of our core faith tenets is the priesthood of all believers. We are all in the ministry. 

Will I still be a pastor? 
No…probably not...well, who knows!

What is my next job title or career path? 
Excellent question! TBD, I’ll keep you posted. Earlier in the week a friend told me he is going to think of me as a retired pastor, which I find quite amusing, though it’s a designation I’ve not earned. “X-Pastor” sounds like a superhero comic book character, like the “X-Men.” I suppose I could print a business card that says that. 

It’s not that these are unimportant questions. God knows I have been wrestling with these questions of identity for a long time. 

In packing up my office I picked up a book that was given to me as a gift when I was ordained. It was signed by the gift-givers (friends who have known me my whole life). They wrote in it: “February 7, 2010 – the day you became the man God created you to be.” 

That was exactly what I needed to hear when I started in parish ministry and it got me through a lot in my 11 years of ministry. When people would get mad at me for what I would or wouldn’t do or say...when I found myself devalued by people in the church...when I couldn’t find encouragement or support, I needed to know that in spite of all the frustrations and disappointments, I was doing what God created me to do.

But at some point, I became curious about life outside of being Pastor Aaron. If I could set off on another career path, what would I choose and why? I discerned a sense of encouragement and optimism as I considered my future outside congregational ministry. And, as the saying goes, you can’t put the genie back in the bottle. 

The Spirit is inviting me to transcend my identity as a pastor...but to include it as well. Tomorrow, I will no longer be Pastor Aaron; but tomorrow I will have been Pastor Aaron. That rich and beautiful experience will always inform my sense of identity.

Transcend and include. After all, I’m still becoming the man God created me to be. And God’s still helping me in the process.

This process has, admittedly, been fairly tumultuous. I have an email folder full of rejection emails from positions at nonprofit organizations to which I’ve applied over the past few months. It is tempting to think of myself as someone no one wants to hire. And that is, in fact, a part of my identity. The call of the Spirit is, of course, to transcend that identity...but to include it as well...to let it fill me with humility as well as inform my decisions and have compassion for others who find it hard to find meaningful employment and the gifts that such employment provides. Transcend and include. 

On top of all this, I found out this week that my identity has been stolen and that someone with my name, phone number, address, and social security number recently applied for a $50,000 loan from the US Small Business Administration. The credit reporting agencies are helping me transcend this identity issue, but as long as I’m unwilling to change my name, phone number, address, and social security number, there will always be a chance that someone will pretend to be me and steal money. I think there’s a whole separate sermon in there about being your true self, but alas, I’m out of time. 

All this is to say that identity matters, but only insofar as it leads to openness and inclusion rather than pride, isolation, and judgment of self or others. Who I am today and tomorrow matters. It matters to you, to my family, to me, and to God. Who I am today will be a part of who I am tomorrow. But who I am today or tomorrow will never change the fact that my true identity is found in Christ alone. I am a child of God. And doesn’t that make for a better business card to carry around? 

Who am I? I am a child of God. 

That’s what the Spirit says when it speaks to and through me, as it will continue to do regardless of whether I’m a pastor, a business owner, a teacher, a bartender, or anything else. 

And what’s true for me is especially true for you. Know who you are and let that knowledge expand your heart and mind in order to treat yourself and others with kindness, respect, and love. You are a beloved child of God with unique characteristics that God placed in you for a reason. You are still becoming the person God created you to be. So be kind to yourself and others, treat one another as beloved children of God, and may God bless you today, tomorrow, and forever. 

Amen.