Epiphany

Hard Won, Faithful Following

Mark 1:14-20

After John was arrested, Jesus came from Galilee proclaiming the good news of God, and saying, “The time is fulfilled. The kingdom of God has come near. Repent. And believe in the good news.”

As Jesus passed along the Sea of Galilee, he saw Simon and his brother, casting a net into the sea, for they were fisherman. He said to them, “Follow me and I will make you fish for people.” Immediately, they left their nets and followed him. As he walked a little farther, he saw James, the son of Zebedee, and his brother John, in their boat mending the nets. Immediately, he called them and they left their father in the boat with the hired men and followed him.


Last week, I talked about “Doubting Nathanael,” that guy who hears about Jesus from his buddy Philip, but who is more than a little suspicious that this Jesus from Nazareth could possibly be who they thought he was – the messiah, the Son of God, “the King of Israel,” as Nathanael ultimately declares him to be, in spite of himself.

As part of all of that, I talked about that very churchy word “evangelism,” the notion of sharing the good news of the Gospel with others in order to invite them to faith – what Philip was doing for his friend, Nathanael, with that short, sweet, simple, holy invitation he learned from Jesus, himself: “Come and see.”

And, when it comes to this “evangelism” stuff, I suggested that some of us aren’t inclined to it. We don’t like it. We don’t feel qualified or capable – a lot of us – to talk about our faith. And I suggested that another reason many of us don’t “evangelize” or talk about our faith out there in the world or invite others to Church like we feel we would, could, or should, is because we don’t want to be “one of those kind of Christians.”

And I could feel the shared sentiment in the air when I said that – “one of those kind of Christians” – like many of you knew what I meant. You know, the pushy ones, the “turn or burn,” fire and brimstone, “get saved or else,” Bible-thumping, holy-rolling Christians who see Jesus’ invitation to “follow me” as less “come and see,” and more “get in line, or else.”

Well, when I considered this morning’s bit of Mark’s Gospel this time around, I wondered about another kind of Christian I don’t want to be, and never have been, really, for that matter. And that’s the kind of Christian who just drops everything and follows Jesus. The kind of believer who leaves nets and boats and friends and family to follow this Jesus from Nazareth. The kind of believer with no questions or doubts or suspicions – like the ones Nathanael had. The kind of follower who just buys all of this, who gets caught up in all of this, who gets dragged along by all of this, hook, line and sinker, you might say.

I think too much of the time, we hear this story about Jesus showing up in Galilee after his cousin, friend, and mentor, John the Baptist was arrested, strolling by the lake collecting disciples like so many sea shells by the sea shore, and we pretend that that’s how it’s supposed to work. That it’s that simple.

“Come and see,” I mean. And they do come, it seems. “Follow me and I’ll make you fish for people.” And I’ll be dipped, they drop everything, leave everything, lay it all down, and follow Jesus, like puppies or robots or whatever.

And it bugs me a little bit that someone thinks I’m “that kind of Christian,” just as much as it bugs me that some might think I’m “the other kind of Christian,” I mentioned earlier.

What I mean… And what I know about so many of you… And what I have learned from reading about those very same disciples we just heard about – James, John, Simon, Andrew, Nathanael, and all the rest – is that this faith we share is hard won; it’s rarely, if ever, easy; it’s hard to come by, to cultivate, to cling to, and to even care about some days. And when we just read little bits of the Gospels like this one – and what a lot of people preach and teach about it – we aren’t getting or sharing the whole story. When we pretend that everyone should be able to just drop everything and follow Jesus, we’re not being fair or honest about what this journey of faith and what life in this world are really like a lot of the time.

Because let’s not forget about how hard it was for these disciples to keep up with following Jesus so faithfully in those early days. Yeah, they left their boats and their nets and their dad that day by the lake, but they missed the point and misunderstood his teaching a lot of the time, too. They had amazing experiences where water became wine, where Lazarus was raised from the dead, where people were healed. They, themselves, passed around a couple of loaves and a few fish to feed thousands of hungry people on more than one occasion. Peter walked on water for crying out loud.

But the story goes that he sank like a stone, too, when his faith failed him out there on that water. And Lazarus died again somewhere along the way, too. And those disciples got stingy with the good news they’d received. And, in the end, despite all they’d seen and all they had to celebrate in their time with Jesus … in spite of all that faithful following … they denied him; they betrayed him; they deserted him; they left him hanging, quite literally, in the end.

Which is to say, again, this faith stuff is hard won, not easy, difficult for a lot of us to come by, to cultivate, cling to, and care about some days. And I think Jesus knew that and knows it, still. And I think it’s why he said then – and invites us, always – to “come and see” and “follow me,” nothing more and nothing less.

Peter Marty is a Lutheran pastor and editor of the Christian Century magazine, for which he wrote a piece last month about a man in his congregation who was coming to terms with the imminent death of his mother. The man, Jason, was 44 years old, his mother, Marie, was dying in the ICU. And Jason was utterly out of sorts about it all – never having been inside a hospital before and not resting in or wrestling with, any measure of faith, whatsoever.

So, in the ICU waiting room, trying to minister to Jason, whose mother was hours away from death, Pastor Marty was asking himself some pretty hard questions. Like, “to someone of unbelief sitting beside you in a hospital waiting room, how do you describe the power of faith, the significance of hope, or the meaning of life?” And, “How do you realistically acquaint them with the riches or comfort of faith during a 20-minute sit-down?”

Pastor Marty’s answer was, sadly, “You don’t.” And I think, sadly, most of the time, he’s right. None of us has encountered Jesus, strolling along the seashore with an easy, “Come and see” and “Follow me,” that does the trick.

As Pastor Marty writes, “Faith is a deeply ingrained condition formed through steady habits, disciplined practices, and reliable instincts that take shape over long stretches of time. It’s a way of life that acquires its layers and contours incrementally, developing ever so gradually and often imperceptibly.” He says, it’s something “like the parent who doesn’t notice her infant’s changing appearance until she comes home from a weeklong trip and can’t believe how much her child has matured in her absence.”

With that in mind, with the struggles that surround us in this world, and with the ones all of us are yet to encounter along the way, I hope we can be careful, compassionate, and realistic about how we receive and share this story of those first disciples who seem to so easily drop everything and follow Jesus.

Don’t get me wrong, their first steps were bold and brazen; beautiful and faithful; inspiring, even, to be sure. But, again, I know it’s not always so easy.

Because they were knuckleheads and naysayers, doubters and deniers, cynics and skeptics, fearful and faithless, too. And again, I think Jesus knew and knows that about all of us, just the same.

And it’s why our invitation is to follow in his footsteps. Not believe without question. Not denying that our fears are real or that they get the best of us too often, either.

But following with whatever faith we can muster – putting one foot in front of the other – loving, forgiving, showing mercy, giving generously, praying daily, worshiping regularly. Following as closely as we can – especially on our hardest days. Following Jesus – trusting that God is always somewhere out ahead of us … making a way for us and to us whether we believe it, understand it, can see it, or not. Following this Jesus – because his is the way and the truth and the life – and it makes a difference for us, come what may, in spite of ourselves, and for the sake of the world.

Amen

Come and See The Color Purple

John 1:41-53

The next day, Jesus decided to go to Galilee. He found Philip and said to him, “Follow me.” Now Philip was from Bethsaida, the city of Andrew and Peter, and he went and found Nathanael and said to him, “We have found the one about whom Moses in the law and also the prophets wrote, Jesus, Son of Joseph, of Nazareth. Nathanael said to him, “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” Philip said to him, “Come and see.”

Now, when Jesus saw Nathanael coming toward him he said, “Here is truly an Israelite in whom there is no deceit.” Nathanael said to him, “Where did you get to know me?” Jesus said to him, “I saw you under the fig tree before Philip called you.” Nathanael said to him, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God. You are the King of Israel.” Jesus said to him, “Do you believe because I said I saw you under the fig tree? You will see greater things than these.” And he said to him, “Very truly I tell you, you will see the heavens opened and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of Man.”


I wonder why we don’t ever use the phrase “Doubting Nathanael.” Most of us know about “Doubting Thomas,” right? He’s the one who gets a bad rap for not believing Jesus had been raised from the dead until he could see and touch the wounds from his crucifixion. Even for people who don’t know the story, “Doubting Thomas” is likely something they’ve said or heard before. To be called a “Doubting Thomas,” of course, is all about whatever it means to be cynical or skeptical in the face of some sort of news.

I suspect the reason “Doubting Nathanael” never became a thing was because his doubts came so early-on. Nathanael hadn’t witnessed yet all that Thomas had seen by the time his doubts about Jesus were revealed. I mean, Thomas had seen the water become wine. Thomas had seen some miraculous healings. Thomas knew about Lazarus stepping out of his tomb. He was there at the Last Supper and all the rest. So, I suppose Thomas is more infamous for his doubts because he should have known better.

But Nathanael – Mr. “Can-anything-good-come-out-of-Nazareth” – didn’t have the benefit of all that history and experience, yet. This little ditty at the beginning of John’s Gospel is just the start of Jesus’ life and ministry – we’re still in Chapter 1 here, after all. All the soon-to-be disciples knew at this point is what had been written, “by Moses, in the law and also the prophets,” about this guy they’d yet to meet.

So, as far as Nathanael is concerned, I like to consider that Philip probably knew a thing or two about Nathanael when he decided to tell him about this Jesus he and the others had found. After all, the story says that Philip “found” Nathanael; not that he bumped into him on the street corner; not that he ran into him on his way to somewhere else; not that Nathanael came to him for something. No, it says that Philip went and found Nathanael, which makes me think they had a history together, that they were friends in some way.

And I wonder if Philip knew his buddy Nathanael was going to react in just that way – doubtful; skeptical; cynical. (“Can anything good come out of Nazareth?”) I wonder if Philip knew Nathanael was a hard nut to crack… that maybe he was lonely, or grieving, or stewing about something in particular underneath the fig tree that day… and that that’s exactly why he set out to find his friend to tell him about Jesus.

And I wonder if Philip was tired of debating Scripture; studying the prophets; dissecting the rumors around town. I wonder if he just couldn’t wait to tell Nathanael, those sweet, simple, inviting words. “We’ve found this Jesus. It’s happened. He’s for real. It’s true. Come and see.”

He’s not threatening his friend. He’s not challenging him. He’s not setting up a debate. He doesn’t judge Nathanael for whatever doubts he has, either. He just says, “Come and see.” And Nathanael goes.

And Nathanael finds, it seems, what he didn’t think he would – “The Son of God!” and “The King of Israel!” – much to his apparent suspicion and surprise.

And this story is nothing more or less than a picture of what gracious, faithful evangelism looks like, if you ask me. See, this story actually begins a couple of verses prior to what we just heard, when Andrew and Peter share what they know with Philip. See, before Philip finds Nathanael, Jesus is the one who starts this “come and see” thing. No threats. No judgment. No fear. No double-dog dares. Just a sweet and simple invitation to “come and see.”

And that’s all evangelism and sharing faith require, I believe. “Come and see.” It’s NOT a judgment. It’s NOT fearful. It’s not “if you don’t come, see, and believe what I believe, you’re doomed for all eternity.”

It’s “come and see” because this grace is for you; it will bless you; it will surprise you in amazing, worthwhile ways.” “Come and see, because you wouldn’t believe it if I told you, anyway.” “Come and see, because there aren’t enough words to describe this kind of love; this kind of forgiveness; this kind of goodness.”

But we’re timid about that, aren’t we? Some of us are out of practice. Some of us have never had the chance to warm up. Some of us might just as soon hang out with Nathanael underneath a fig tree somewhere with our questions and our doubts, not sure where to go or what to look for. And I get that. I can get pretty comfortable beneath my own proverbial fig tree every now and then.

So, I often ask new CrossRoads classes “when was the last, best movie you’ve seen?” Or, “have you read any good books lately?” And those questions usually let people loose with conversation. Because when we see a really good movie – whether it’s so funny we laughed our heads off, or so sad we cried our eyes out – we like to tell others about it, don’t we? When we’ve read a really good book we do the same thing … talk it up with a friend, or even pass it along to share with someone we think might appreciate it.

My point is we’re more timid or shy, uncertain or unconvinced when it comes to talking about our faith with the same ease or energy or enthusiasm, aren’t we? Maybe we think we have to have all the answers. Maybe we’re afraid we might offend. Maybe we’re reluctant to reveal too much about ourselves along the way. Maybe we just don’t want to look or sound or be like “one of those kind of Christians.”

But today’s Gospel makes it easy, I think. Philip doesn’t answer questions. He doesn’t say anything that could offend. All he seems to reveal about himself is that he’s on the same sort of journey. He doesn’t pretend to prove anything. And neither does Jesus. “Come and see.”

And so, at least this morning, all we’re called to do is invite: “Come and see.” And we have a lot to show people about this movement of grace we’re up to around here, I’m glad to say.

“Come and see,” a family of faith that’s teaching generosity to our kids by way of offerings of over $7,500 last month alone. That money is going to share the simple gift of life-giving water with some of the most vulnerable children and families in our own country and around the world.

“Come and see” a place and a people who are wrestling with the work of racial justice and LGBTQ equity and inclusion in the midst of a community and a culture that will not do that work, in so many ways.

“Come and see” by sitting in on an Adult Forum, or by coming to a Men’s or Women’s Bible Study, or by bringing your kids to Grace Quest and Sunday school, and learning, together, what we can about God’s Word for our lives.

“Come and see” on any given Sunday, because everyone’s welcome here – through the waters of baptism and at the table of holy communion, too – where we eat bread and drink wine and where we’re filled up with the fullness of God’s forgiveness, mercy, and love, with no strings attached. “Come and see.”

Speaking of movies… the last one I’ve seen was the new musical version of The Color Purple. The name of Alice Walker’s novel, on which the first movie and this recent musical are based – The Color Purple – comes from a simple, profound line in the book where Shug Avery says to Celie, “I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don't notice it.”

“I think it pisses God off if you walk by the color purple … and don’t notice it.”

I think our call as followers of Jesus … as believers in God … as recipients of this amazing grace we claim … is simply to notice it, to celebrate it, and to give thanks to the God who so generously shares it with us. And I think we’re called to invite others to come and see it, too; to notice and share it, right along with us, not just because maybe it pisses God off when we don’t, but because we’re blessed and better – our lives and the world change for good – when we realize it’s not ours, this grace, but God’s to give – and God does give it – freely and with abundance, for the sake of the world.

Amen